Monday

分享喜悦 = 先苦后甜

奋斗了九个月
终于在四月二十六号生下了重3.1kg的宝宝
而且还比预产期早两个礼拜
没办法宝宝想快点来到这个世界上(嘻嘻)

还没生的前两天
也就是拜六突然觉得肚子有些不适
而且还来些东西
他们说这是要生的讯号
一直到拜日下午
突然来红
害我怕到
赶紧告诉老公和打电话给我的妈咪
还好我的老公还满冷静下的
虽然人人都说别急因为第一胎是没那么快的
但是我还是很不放心
因为我不想有任何的错失
所以就打电话去给我的医生
医生叫我来他的诊所检查

我赶紧冲好凉
就跟老公去了
到了诊所一直还没轮到我
弄得我很紧张很害怕
毕竟是第一次

等了差不多有一个小时终于轮到我了
医生看到我觉得很奇怪
因为我的预产期还没到
后来他就为我检查
他说已经开了2cm
他也说也许今晚会生或过几天
一半羊水还没破所以还不能肯定
也一半是第一胎没那么快
医生说现在可以回家
但现在我可以做的只有努力的去走走
这样骨旁比较容易开
还好平时老公都有陪我去散步

诊所回来后
我们大家就分工合作的布置及收拾房间
因为怕也许今晚今晚真的会生

上次去检查时
医生说下次见
但这次却说
产房间

散步好后
到了晚上七点多
肚子开始有规律性的阵痛
大约每五分钟痛一次
这种痛真的很难挨
到了晚上快十点
就发讯息给我的朋友们和亲戚们
叫他们为我祷告
因为我非常的紧张和害怕

到了十点出
真的不行了
就和老公拿好东西
就开车去医院了
还没去之前
家婆有叫我先喝杯热milo
在车里开始越来越痛了
痛到走起路来都有些困难
报到好后就进产房
护士先为我检查
还是跟下午一样只开了2cm
后来就在我的肚子上装了两个仪器
一个是看宝宝的心跳
另一个则是测量有多痛
甚至还可以看到痛的来临
一旦痛快来时,护士就会通知我

没多久越开越大了
大约开了4-5cm时羊水便破了

真的是痛到受不了
那时真的很想放弃了
我一直在争扎
要求打针
那个针是打在脊髓骨的
这个针是一个专业的印度医生才可以打的
打了下半身会变麻痹
然后不会感到有任何的疼痛
但我打了反而还更痛
就再加药水
还是受不了
还是很疼痛
那个药对我没有效力

人人都还以为没那么快生
但是一下子又开了几cm
护士就说会生了
赶紧通知医生来
老公负责通知家人

医生和护士还说我算是开很快了
终于开完了10cm
医生就说可以生了
生产的过程真的很难熬
还好有老公在身边一直为我加油打气
我一直用错力气所以无法生
直到医生说再给你最后一次机会出力
要是真的不行就要用东西把宝宝给吸出来
听了很害怕
也不懂当时害怕到用什么九牛二虎之力的把宝宝给挤出来
用了大约半个钟
宝宝终于诞生了
从疼痛到生产整个过程大约只有三个小时

虽然从开始怀孕到生产是很难熬的时刻
但过了这一关
便是喜悦的到来了
听到哇哇的哭声
看到护士把宝宝抱到我的面前
感到非常的喜悦

当医生为我缝好及洗好伤口
便把我推进病房里了
要进病房前就看到大姐和妈咪在那里了
三更半夜妈咪他们还会来看我
真的让我感到好感动
等我安顿好后
妈咪他们才回家
因为有打那个针所以当时的我是有点blur blur的
但我还会记得老公既然会说:“老婆,谢谢你”
真的是没想到他那个人会说出这样的话
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈 :-D

还没天亮时
祷告说希望下体不会很痛
果然醒来之后
真的不会痛
而且还能起来走路上厕所
真的很感谢神垂听了我的祷告
天亮了
家婆和叔叔便送东西来给我吃
在还没出院之前一定要先小便才可以回
因为他们要看伤口缝的有把尿带给阻塞吗
头几次一直小不出来
因为护士说如果还不能小便就要放tube进去把尿给弄出来
还我怕死去
赶紧祷告
过了一下
真的能小便了
很开心
因为终于可以出院了

中午十二点
我和宝宝便回家了

在这里要感谢
为我祷告的亲戚朋友们
谢谢你们一直都支持着我

也很感谢神
让我们一切都顺利的渡过

Thursday

bad mood

今天的心情糟透了
不懂为何
就是感到很不舒服
很辛苦啊
很闷闷不乐啊
会不会是天气太热的关系?
又或许是体内热?
还是说要生了?
有谁能了解我现在的状况?

感觉到全身越来越沉重
压力
犹如背了一大堆的大石头在爬山
累累累累累

很想睡但就是睡不着
难受极了

心情糟透了
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
谁能救我哦

Tuesday

~~count down~~

still gt 17 days to go~~
very very nervous n scare
last sat went to c doc
n my baby's weight is edy 2.9kg
hope tat my baby's weight wont add gainz
cuz it ll caused hard to gv birth
n d doc also got teach us when we should go to d hospital


i hope it wont b so painful
o pain for so so so long time
hope tat i can gv birth so so easily
(hehehhehehe~~~hope so)


last thursday nite
my stomach suddenly felt so so pain...
dunno how to describe it
reli reli very pain
my hubby also nervous until sweat a lot
thankfully he still can record d time for me


n d doc said this is jz "fake pain"
wah~~ this pain reli can kill ppl la
pain until i cry =.=///
reli cant stand tat pain
at tat time i still ask my hubby
"need to go to hospital o not"
hahahahahhahah...
silly me =.=


n now i jz pray tat everything ll b FINE
n d most important things is baby n me ll b safe n healthy
n pls continue to pray for me :-D
thanks a lot
may God bless u all
n hav a nice n wonderful day






love ya
j0y j0y

^^^^^ b@d b@d m0oD ^^^^^

ararararararr....
nt feeling so well nw...
darm bad bad bad bad mood....
dunno y ar.....
so so so so so suffer ar......


who can help me???
i wana explore le.......

ararararar......
wana hit wana bite ppl ar.....
arararar...
jz feel like crazy rite nw.....


who can help me???
reli cant stand ar....
feel like many many bomb inside me nw....


wat can i do nw???
who can tell me wat is going on wif me???


hope can hav a good sleep nw ar.......
haiz~~~~~~~~~~~

===== 感谢神 =====

前两个星期刚去了医院做检查
很高兴的是一切都很顺利
而且我的血从9.多一下飞到11.多
真的很感谢神,也很让我惊讶
因为我还以为这次血又下降了
在这里也要感谢我的爸爸妈妈
因为每次我回娘家时他们都会煮猪干给我吃
还有也是要感谢我的家婆
她买了猪肝粉给我喝
他们各各都很体贴
而且去量体重时
我也还以为我的体重会增加
没想到的是体重没增也没减
可说是好事

反而去私人医院扫描时
宝宝的体重却是大的很快
我的体重没增反而宝宝的增
好奇怪哦
也许我吃的全被孩子吸收吧
宝宝已经是2.7kg了
还剩一个月的时间
如果再没有控制食欲
宝宝会很大哦
最后两个月的宝宝大最快的
希望奇迹会发生
让我的孩子不会重过3kg
这样会比较容易生
现在最好只能吃些水果蔬菜之类的食物

怀孕不是件容易的事
而且是要付出代价的
最好是有个体贴的老公在身旁
要不然你会更气死的
头三个月和最后的几个月是最难熬的
所以医生说只好忍忍忍再忍忍忍
而且最近的脾气特别爆
可以为了一些小事就会爆的那种
总之在这最后一个月里很难熬就对了
晚上无法入睡
很多食物不能吃
只能看不许吃
坐着站着躺着
没有一个姿势是舒服的
而且宝宝也超会动的
因为宝宝慢慢长大了
所以动作会很用力
现在宝宝动的时候
会感到很不舒服
好像要把我的肚子给拉破似的

有好期待快点生但又害怕
grrgrgrgrgrgrgrgrggrrrrrrrr
下个星期又要做检查了
希望一切还是顺顺利利



l0vE y@,
j0yj0y :-)

@@@ 伤心 + 想念 @@@

好伤心哦
老公今天八点多的飞机去KK开会了
好想他哦
自从结婚到现在
我们都没有分开过的
这可算是第一次吧
虽然他只去两天一夜
但给我的感觉却是去了很久似的
也许我是属于依靠型的吧
所以才会如此舍不得
啊啊啊啊~~
多么希望我能够再学习独立点哦

因为不敢一个人睡
所以就回娘家睡
很感谢我的家婆的体谅

希望明天的下午快点来临
那么就可以见到我的臭老公了


Friday

!!!!! 好累哦 好害怕哦 好紧张哦 !!!!!

一天一天就这样过去了
时间也越来越接近了
害怕 + 喜乐的时刻将要来临了

很期待
但又很害怕
是不是很矛盾呢

算算~差不多还有剩六个星期
我就要升级成为妈咪了
现在很努力在做准备
读一些有关的书籍
教导我到时要如何照顾一个小生命
『在读书时的我,都没那么努力,现在却。。。嘻嘻』
希望我会成为一个很好的妈咪
把宝宝照顾得很好
也希望生产的过程不会很辛苦

现在开始会觉得很累很累了。。。
尤其在晚上的时候
特别难入睡
很痛苦啊
怎么躺着都是个问题
总觉得不舒服
而且双脚还时常抽筋
抽筋时特别痛的
现在的双脚也开始肿了
希望生好后会恢复原来的身材

很感谢我的好好老公
他真的很体贴
每天晚上会帮我按摩
偶尔也会跟我一起读圣经
每天早上也一定会泡杯牛奶叫我起床
甚至还会陪我去上妈妈课程
虽然有时某些方面他做不好
但我还是
真的很谢谢他

hmmmmm。。。
在买宝宝的东西其实也是件头痛的事
因为
现在宝宝的东西真的是太多太多了
难以做选择
有些人说这个品牌好,有有些人说哪个品牌好
真的是头大
就连选奶瓶都难
因为真的是太多款了
在逛婴儿那一区时
看到的东西
样样我都好喜欢
真的很想把所有的东西都买下来
因为太可爱了
简直像是个疯狂似那样

还剩一些东西还没准备好
希望在这几天能全部完全准备好
希望一切都能顺利的渡过

好了
现在开始感觉到爱睡了
要去休息下了
保重
*****再见*****

may God bless u all

love ya,
j0yj0y

Thursday

** lEttInG gO **

This is beautiful. Read it to the end...the message is awesome!!!
By T.. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you.

And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.. You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something.. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye.. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ........

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth.......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you.

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction.... ..

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents

LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude.... ...

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him..........

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship. ...

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves.. .....

LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed ............

LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying 'take your hands off of it,' then you need to.......

LET IT GO!!!

'The Battle is the Lord's!'

During the next 60 seconds, Stop whatever you are doing, and take this opportunity..

(Literally it is only ONE minute!)

All you have to do is the following:

You simply say 'The Lords Prayer' for the person that sent you this message:


[The Lords Prayer

Our Father, who are in Heaven, Hallowed be Thy Name, Thy Kingdom Come, Thy Will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day, our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil.

For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power, and the Glory, forever.

Amen.]

Next, send this message to everyone you know. In a while, more people will have prayed for you and you would have obtained a lot of people praying for others!

Next, stop and think and appreciate God's power in your life, for doing what you know is pleasing to Him.

If you are not ashamed to do this, follow the instructions!

Jesus said, If you are ashamed of me, I will be ashamed of you before My Father'

If you are not ashamed, send this message.... only if you believe.

'Yes, I love my God. He is my fountain of Life and My Savior.

He Keeps me going day and night. Without Him, I am no one. But with Him, I can do everything, Christ is my strength.' This is a simple test.

If you love God and you are not ashamed of all the great things that He has done for you, send this to everyone you know..



God loves you and watches over you everyday

~^~ sc@rE sc@rE ~^~

大约有一个多月没去见DR了。
因为每次去那里,DR一定会扫描宝宝的。
而且我听人家说宝宝不可常常扫描,对宝宝不好。
所以就想等迟一些才去。
就在三月头,我们才去看DR.
DR说很久没来见他了,但还好我们还有去政府医院检查。
当DR扫描时,一切都很正常。
DR突然冒了一句。。。
他问我做年时是不是吃很多???
原来宝宝已经超重了半个多月。。。
宝宝如果太大很难生。。

『这让我想起,我的舅母的宝宝重3.74kg。。。
无法自然生,还要动刀。
而且当时是在医院,没有人陪她。。。
好可怜哦。。。
如果是我,早都怕死了。。』

听到DR那么说,我当时真的是怕去。。。
怕我的情况也会跟我舅母一样。
人家还说我的肚子很小,宝宝应该也是很小。
但想不到,我的宝宝却是超重。。。
这让我不敢去医院生产。

现在时间越来越接近了。。
而且宝宝还超重。。
接下来的时间,宝宝大更快。。。
开始觉得怕怕怕怕了。。。
我很怕痛,也很怕宝宝太大~~
现在真的无法想像当时会有多痛??

做一个妈妈真的很辛苦。。
原来妈妈是这么伟大的。。

很感谢我的好姐妹-刘琼
送了我两本很好的书籍。
『从0岁开始』
这本书教导身为爸爸和妈妈如何迎接和照顾新宝宝。

哦对,上次有提到,
宝宝的喉咙被肚脐带围绕着,
那天扫描时,有问DR..
感谢主,肚脐带已经没有在宝宝的喉咙那里了。。
神真的垂听了我的祷告。

现在,
最最最最困扰我的是:
我的血一直往下跌。。。
一定要用足够的血 (12 - 17)之间。。
而我的血是从11 慢慢跌到9点多。。。
如果不够血会导致早生产甚至还有可能会#%……&@×

请继续为我祷告。。
谢谢!!

Wednesday

*****生命的奇迹*****

long time no update my blog lo...
not im too busy to update bt d pro is im so lazy...
cuz of long time no work le so nw became mr n mr lazy le...

y pregnant de women cant look pretty de...
i edy been pregnant for 6 months le...
n my face r looking so so pale... :-(
pregnant isnt an easy job...
i suffer for d 1st 3 months...
thanks God tat i felt much better after tat...
in d 1st 3 months i had lost my weight...
after tat my weight suddenly add add add...
in 1 month can add until 2 kg...
oh my~~~ grrrrrrrrr....
now started keep on finding food to eat...
my tummy is full le....bt dunno y my mouth r too "itchy"
wana eat things so much...
my tummy edy cant support le....bt... haiz...
b4 my tummy is very very small...
if i dun tell ppl tat i had pregnant no one ll noe it....
bt now when it is 6 months... my tummy baru jump out...
when i look at myself at d mirror....
oh no.....
im looking fatty =.=
i nvr been so so so fat like now...
dun even dare to take a pic.....
wuwuwuuwu :-(
it is bcuz im pregnant...
i reli wori tat ll i cant get bc like b4 de weight after i gv birth????
so so wori tat i ll became ah bui after tat la.... 
if like tat i need to say goodbye to my old clothes le... :-(
haiz....
ppl say tat pregnant women owes ll think bout many many useless things....
i agree wif it...
cuz im now in this kind de situation...
even sometimes my tears ll suddenly drop w/o any reason....

althou pregnant is diff bt it is so so miracle too..
cuz its reli hard to believe tat a life can living inside my tummy...
i can felt d heart beat...o even things moving....
everytime when i go scanning.... i can see my baby...
im so so happy to c it...




in 3th of jan i went for a special scan which is diff from d other day... bt i dunno wat is its name in english...
i only noe chinese name which is called 深切扫描..

i heard ppl said in sibu here only gt one doc got do such scanning...dunno la
it is used to check whether ur baby is ok o not..
scan d baby brain, heart, bone, finger, toes....can check deeply...
it only can scan when it is 黄金时期。around 20 to 22 weeks ba... i forgot le...
n it takes around half an hour n cost around RM2xx....

b4 we scan, d doc ll explain wat is d used to do tis scanning...
it ll nt bring any effect to d baby...
we can c our baby in 4D...(act i would like to show u guy bt im not at my own house nw so i cant show u...
im soli...)
after tat d doc asked me to lay down on d bed...
b4 tat d doc wont say anything cuz he wan to c clearly den js ll say anything....
it ll start scan from d head to d toe...
when scan until d heart...
d doc keep on adjust many position to look at it...
so so long for he to look at it...
my hubby n i r so so wori at tat time...
cuz we thou got something wrong wif it...
i keep on pray to God... pls pls pls dun let anything happen...
after a while den d doc said its normal....
thanks God...
n d doc even teach us how to look at it...
n he explain to us...
wat is d thing tat he show us....
finally everything is normal...
reli reli thanks God...
jz one thing make me so so wori is d doc said...

肚脐带是在宝宝的喉咙那里绕着。。。
但暂时没什么危险。。。
因为宝宝在现在的时候是很会转动的。。。
所以医生叫我别担心。。。
但我还是会担心。。。
因为我听到过很多这样的case,最后就变成要开刀早产把宝宝拿出来。。。
我非常非常的担心。。
我一直祷告神要保守我的宝宝。。。
甚至每天晚上我都会读一章圣经节给我宝宝听。。。
然后也会跟他讲话。。。
跟他说话时,他好像有在听你们说话的。。
有时他会好像给你们发应。。
你跟他说好一句,他就会替你一下。。
总之真的很神奇。。

在这里,我希望如果你们有在看我的部落格的人,
能为我的宝宝祷告。。。
我会非常的感激。

in this pregnant de time, d most things tat make me so so scary de is i had to go to d clinic to do d checking...
i went for 2 clinic...
one is private de n d other one is poliklinik..
d private one only for scanning...
n d other one is for checking deeply...
y government d clinic owes ll make ppl feel scary de??
n d service is reli reli so so lousy tat i can say...
haiz...
when go to poliklinik...
reli hav to wait for so so long...
reli waste time at there...
private one i had go for many times...
bt d government de i only go for 2 times..
n this 2 time reli so so scary..
cuz hav to suntik..
reli painful la =.=
im reli too scare even d nurse is laughing at me la....
oh my... reli reli pai se la :-(
i hate i hate i hate to go to d clinic...
i hope i no need to go poliklinik gainz.....
but ~~~haiz...

some say go to general hospital give birth is better bt some say go for private one is better...
im so so so wori...
dunno which one should i choose....
not every private one is good de...
haiz....
headache =.=
can anyone gv me so comment bout this???
im reli scare to gv birth la..
cuz i cant stand d pain...
even a little bit de pain i edy cant stand le...
haiz... im too too useless le ba... heheh :-p

k la,
i hav to stop here le...
hope can upload pic in d next blog....
may God bless u all :-)
hav a great day...












TATA !!

Monday

**** bOrInG ****

boring boring boring~~~~

today d school start n it non of my business....
how come????

oh no oh no....
reli very very boring....

how can i survive w/o a job.....

oh no.....

God pls gv me a job......

wat ll b my next plan???

hmmmm...
everyone is asking me to hav a good rest at home.....
bt i reli reli cnt make myself rest la.. cuz reli too boring....

today js d 1st day staying at home...
i edy cant stand le....
wat can i do for d next day o next next day....n so on.....
haiz...

God, pls help me....