hI eVeryOne, im jOyjOy..
tis is my 1st blog...
hope to write some to share wif u guy bout my story...
begin wif my life....
past n present~~~
its full of joy, sad, heart break n so on.......
in my life there r 2 guys tat i met...
one is AL n another is AN....
one is same age n another is older than me 6 yrs....
both of them r quite different....
althou AL is past le... bt he ll still in my memory..
i wont forget bout it no matter how he treat me b4....
cuz ur my 1st guy in my life...
AL n i had been noe each other since we r in secondary schoo...
we r best buddy b4....
quite funny when i noe he fall in love in me....
reli funny...
how come this guy ll fall in love wif me....
hhahahhhahha :-)
b4 this i keep on reject him cuz no feel...
bt when we r 19...den start our love story....
wah~~~~
reli unexpected things happen.....
me n him can b a couple.....
kkekkeekke.....
its started a happy time....
we talk on d phone whole nite....
too many things to b share.....
now dun remember we talk bout wat le....
i still remember tat AL accompany me join a camp called praise n worship camp...
its around 3 days...
i thk..
it is a pastor came from sabah teaching us how to use a musical instrument in a team...
reli miss tat time...
we r hand in hand in d ceremony...
reli SWEET~~~
tat time AL reli so so so good....
whenever he came bc from KL he ll brought something to me....
tat's is CHOCOLATE....
i ike d most... :-)
got a rabbit de chocolate....
hehhehe~~~~
oh ya b4 i forgt...
i still remember one things...
he gv me a big surprice....
dunno when u c this ll u still remember???
hmmmm....
got one time i represent my niece's parents to bring her to attend a mini sports day....
n tat time AL is coming bc cbu tat day jz i duno d flight....
n we r talk on d ph....
he say he wan sleep for a while n ask me to wake him up after one hrs ba.... i thk....
den after one hrs i started to call him....
oh my..... i was so nervous cuz cant call...
i afraid he ll missed his flight....
im so so wori...
but after a while he calls me le.... :-)
act at this time he is reach cbu airport le bt he dun wan to tel me...
he jz told me jz now at KL airport no line....
den stupid de me reli thrust in him....
hahhahahah :-)
how stupid m i.....
den he keep on asking wat i wan to eat n where m i??
i say i wan to eat KFC my favourite....
i forgt wat name is tat le...
and i duno he is gv me a surprise....
hehhehe....
den after tat i continue play games wif my niece....
after a while i heard a car's sound very familiar...
den i look out.....
ohmy......
its reli him.....
i was so happy at tat time...
thx a lot ya AL :-)
its reli so sweet.....
oh ya i still remember when u wan to go KL gain u ll owes bring my BABY snoopy go wif u....
u said tat represent me :-)
it reli sweet :-)
n nw i guess i wont hav it bc gain.....:-(
pls tak good care of my baby snoopy ya...
b4 ths i used to write a diary...
record all happy n unhappy things....
bt after AL had leave me den all d memory also gone wif him forever le....
me n him reli facing many many things...
when we r a couple...
b4 this many of my fren r jealous me n AL...
cuz we r too sweet tat time....
bt dunno when start we no longer sweet gainz....
everyday only noe quarrel....
he started make me cant find him o we talk less....
n many many things...
make me no peace at all tat time....
cuz we r in different place...
i hate long distance de relationship...
its reli so so suffer....
i still remember 1st time i bake a cake n tat cake j from AL de bday cake...
until nw i still dunno it delicious o not cuz i dun dare to eat it....
hehhehehe...
his mummy n aunty them all got eat it....
im so so paise tat time la....
cuz of my lousy cake :-(
some of our story i edy forgt le.... sorry AL...
i jz remember d last time i hug u.......
den after tat u r gone forver.....
i cant even find u....
u leave w/o saying anything....
tat time is my worse time....
i keep on find any way to find u out....
i thou something had happen to u....
d last time u talk to me is "lao po, i wan go to work le"
den after tat nvr heard ur voice ever again/....
mb u plan to do so......w/o telling me///
u thk tis is d good way from me n u.....
n tat's d end between me n AL.... i thk....
den after three months i lost contact wif AL
i met wif AN....
AN reli nice to me...
i also got tell him bout AL n me4 de things...
he can accept it.....
thx God for listen to my prayer for sending me a angel to me....
after i engage....
i n AL started contact gainz....
it quite long time we haven contact...
den finally we contact...
at tat time i jz hope can hav my things bc....
n i dun thk tat we can hav a nice talk....
cuz i dun hav any feel wif him gainz...
bt after we talk...
wah~~~
reli unexpected
we can talk much nice than b4 we did....
we jz felt like bc to b4 le....
d feeling reli so great....
when he heard tat i ll get marry soon...
he reli so so sad...
at tat moment,
we jz realise tat we still love each other...
bt everything is too late le.....
how sad!!!!!
i keep on asking myself y this kind de thing ll happen in my life???
it jz like a movie de???
y when my life start to cool down this things ll came up again....
?????????????
no matter how he did to me b4,
i no longer hate him anymore....
cuz GOD can forgive peter for 3 times dun recognise him....
so do i......
when we say out everything .....
im so so struggle...
dunno which way to go.....
i hope to choose AL n hope to choose AN.....
my life at tat time reli reli very complicated......
if we contact early b4 i met wif AN mb d ending ll b different....
hmmm.......
for AL,
i wan to tell....
no matter how...
i ll still support u for everything tat u do it now....
hope u can feel my blessing n support in ur heart...
hope this time u can successfully finish ur studies...
n congrat to u finally u can hav u like de course.....
hope one day can c u in F1 racing .....
gambade ya :-)
all d best to u n ur family....
May GOD bless u all :-)
thx to ur sis too....
thx her for being so good wif me tat time :-)
oh ya..
i wan go get ready le....
my students is coming tuition soon....
to b continue....
hope u guys enjoy reading my story :-)
take care n God bless
TATA!!!!
~at nite de us :-) i more like nite de make up than morning de~
my 2nd dress